second hand hopes

by Samantha Lowe - Scorpio

*You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience by which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, "I lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along." -Eleanor Roosevelt*

i stayed up
reading these words over and over 
saying them aloud
in the dark of my cold, forbidding room
last night
everything had fallen apart
i looked into the mirror
and saw someone already gone
two lost eyes of a girl misunderstood
and two streaming tears
treading the path of a face so involved
with the shouldn'ts, the can'ts, and the would nots
on the verge of saying goodbye
on the verge of losing it all
i almost gave up
but my thoughts lingered
on the ones who would stay behind
the lost years
the no goodbyes
you guys have always complimented me on my strength
during the sudden deaths
days spent in the hospital
the alcoholism
and now it seemed i would give it all up
as if i fought for nothing
all these years
i had given up a long time ago
but these words spoke to me
struck right to the core of my spirit
and allowed me the second chance to go on
only now I hope this will last
this strength
this hope to go on
i want to survive.
Birth sign: Scorpio
Date created: 2000-12-13 15:44:37
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:43:11
Poem ID: 58965

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