darbyann

by Samantha Lowe - Scorpio

18 
now an adult
all those years spent
all those years in hell
spent most of my life trying to prove everyone wrong
pushing
and fighting
but living all the same
they'd call me stupid because i was different
they'd call me worthless
a failure
practically a disease to all
the more words they said, the more i'd fall
the more i'd give up
and edge them closer to winning
i thought of the end
for why else would i want to live?
no one cared for me
no one loved me
everyone gave up
even if they said that they would always be there
they lied
god didn't seem real
why would someone put me through this
torture
god didn't exist
i'd hold the razor up to my cool pale skin each night
want to back out
like i've almost done this week
but each time i'd think of my mother
my father who cared
i'd think of all the losers
who made fun of me
taunted me
made my life a living hell
and i'd think about
how incredibly pleased i'd be
the day i come back
and make them all see
that they really didn't know me
and how now, they can't hurt me.
Birth sign: Scorpio
Date created: 2000-12-14 16:32:16
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:43:11
Poem ID: 59008

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