Questions

by Samantha Lowe - Scorpio

dwindling on thoughts of past and present
i'm lost
i'm hurt
i'm so messed up
i don't want to be here any longer
but i have to go on
have to face what it is that has been holding me back
can't go over the edge just yet
can't tell anyone 
too scared to face what i have to face
i was raped
and i gave up fighting
he was too strong
so i gave up
just laid there
to him it seemed i wanted it
i stopped saying stop
i stopped saying no
just laid there motionless
as he did what he sought out to do
i'm so lost
so confused
was it rape
when i didnt want to do it
but gave up
what do i say to him
what do i say to my parents
what is going on
i don't know whats happening
all i know is
i'm too scared to go on
too scared to fight
too scared to talk to anyone
i want to give up
Birth sign: Scorpio
Date created: 2000-12-17 15:19:01
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:43:12
Poem ID: 59042

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