What If

by Babycakes_101 - Leo

What If

What if the past wasn't mine
could I turn the hands of time?
be the girl I could never be
The one who could stand up for me
To stop the pain, before it would start
To protect myself from a torn heart.
The day he walked in, instead I walked out
Knowing my life was mine without a doubt.
But I didn't cry out, as I recall
I closed my eyes and wished it away is all.
I pretended I couldn't feel his touch
The thing that I feared so much
I often wondered at that time, why?
Why coudlnt I just curl up and die.
Today I've grown more than I show
Why live my childhood now, some will never know
Still I can't stop the tears when they fall
I cant stop the sounds of his steps in the hall.
I cant forget th dread I felt
Or the regret for the way I delt

by
sheila

Reason for writing:

    same as my other one.. just being molested.. but i wish i could send a message to everyone whos been molested, that even if u have, u will always have these questions in your heart but you can move on.. and you are not the ones to blame!!!  NO matter what you think.. I know cause I feel like I am to blame a lot too.. but its not true.. peace and love to all..    

Birth sign: Leo
Date created: 2000-12-19 22:03:01
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:43:13
Poem ID: 59087

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