Memories of Xmas

by Samantha Lowe - Scorpio

I stare out at the snow falling down upon the frozen ground
This dark night
Thinking of the days before Christmas
The many people laying awake in their beds
Dreaming of Christmas morn when they awake to find 
A day where harsh words and sudden obscenities are hard to find
Where anger and hatred is left upon the doorstep with the snow
Where love and forgiveness for all is spread world wide
And ponder, as I lay here
Within this bed
Red lights decorating the walls of my room
The single Christmas tree
Presents spread around
How the season has changed since childhood
I remember...
Sitting in the backseat of my dad's car Christmas Eve night
Just a little girl
Gazing up at the sky with starlit eyes
Trying to find some bright light that would indicate Santa's sleigh
Yet I never saw it
The lights were always airplanes 
Perhaps to join families back together for the holidays
I would lay awake as I do now
Trying to listen for the sound of Rudolph's candy coated hoofs upon the roof above my head
And hope that Santa wouldn't catch me peeking
Run down Christmas morning, the glitter of sleep in my eyes
And the anticipation of the opening of gifts
And open each gift in the excitement of seeing what each gift was
Then playing with them the entire day
Endlessly
Now Christmas is very different
There are endless parades of malls and stores
Trying to find that “perfect” gift for that special somebody
Endless baking and cooking
And cleaning
Never any time to sit down
My excitement of the day to come is even greater
Yet the joy of opening gifts has gone away for good
The only joy is found in giving to others
Seeing their faces brighten as they unravel each gift
A sense of completeness as you find you’ve brought happiness to someone’s life
At least for a moment or two
Yet Christmas still has that special something
That special something that makes you want to get up in the morning 
Put on the xmas music and just start dancing as you bake and decorate
Or you standing underneath the mistletoe trying to sneak a kiss from your loved one
I wish sometimes, though, that things would go back to how things used to be
And I’d be that little girl again
With the long light blonde pig tails
Looking up at the moon Christmas Eve
Trying my best to spot Santa
I miss Christmas. 
Birth sign: Scorpio
Date created: 2000-12-24 00:17:22
Last updated: 2021-04-14 17:18:12
Poem ID: 59171

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