Anger and rage keep inside of my cage I can’t even type, this shit fights inside Do I keep the TV on or do I sit in silence I can’t stand this feeling of violence Inside as if I just watched myself die I try to calm down, but I can’t erase this frown What the fuck do I do? Trying to kill this pain, trying to get back to the same Feeling like I have shamed Cause I don’t help a friends and I feel like I’ve sinned I want to go but my body says no I’m tearing up inside and I’m not sure why Come talk to me and see that I’m insane What is wrong with me? What is going on in my brain? I’m all alone and I’m about to go and fuck something up And then go…. I don’t know… Get me out of this place Cause this hate I can't erase I need to not care I need to not feel I need to not love Cause I don’t know what to do I don’t know what do say As I start to calm down Start to be kindof ok Then I try to breathe deep But that calm I can’t keep Cause I start to think again Of what I want and cant have What the fuck do I do This pounding keeps coming My lifeline I feel running Away with my life My love My only feeling of goodness Taken away from my chance Taking away my last dance Someone help me please I’m down on my knees Begging someone to help By I’m still by myself And I should start to quit And get away from this shit ‘Cause I know I cant have you And there is nothing I can do My heart just keeps sinking Into a black hole My life just keeps subtracting All the loved ones I know Someone get me of this kick I’m feeling real sick And I don’t know what to do Soon I feel I’ll be screwed I don’t care what they say I want to see her everyday And they no I have no hope And I know that… But I’m tied to that rope That binds me to her And my sight becomes blurred What the fuck do I do Or say Or what… Help…………………… I can’t calm down or even quit typing So my running through my head I feel like I wiping My slate clean again But that will never happen I can’t get her out of my mind I can’t stop with this rhyme I try time after time And I can’t do…………. My head hurts. I’m confused I lost the point of the poem Back at the start But the ache I am feeling I’m the breakage of my hear And I need to stop this But the bliss I will miss This will make no sense Cause I haven’t read this past since My thoughts I free flow So I can type all that I know Come help me tonight Come help me with my fight Fuck I don’t know Maybe I should just go I need to stop whining I need to start passing time But how do I do this But how… I put my hands on my eyes To try to cover those lies That I think I can win That I think she will sin Or something like that … I sink into my chair Feeling like I’m not really there I shake cause I’m tense Filled with all this violence My hands I can’t feel My eyes begin to tear But I sit and I type Cause those tears I won’t wipe And I can’t feel my brain I feel I’m going insane and I can’t stop my hands ‘Til I meet my demands And I feel I can’t stop Till my head starts to drop Or I scream about these But that won’t take my insanity …………………. ………….. I shudder and grasp Feeling stunned like an asp Ok I’m gonna try and quit again This time I’m gonna try and sit again Thinking about past times……….
Reason for writing:
Thinking of the days
Birth sign: Taurus
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