Around the people that I call my friends I feel I’m at my worst They laugh and talk like they haven’t cares Yet I am bound and cursed All smiles am I but dying inside Thinking of things to come What to say next or how to react It makes my mind go numb They see me happy as they are now When the truth is so far from it If only it didn’t hurt so bad I’d have so much to admit My smiles it will fade when they have gone And ill resume my depression They’ll never know how I really feel I’ve bottled up my confession. So much to say but no words come out They’ve been hidden all to well Far away deep beyond my heart Things I will not soon tell Now they think whatever they want I’m a simple “happy” soul They’ve been fooled once and I can do it again Just as long as I play that role.
Reason for writing:
All my friends think they know me so damn well but they don't. And I wish I could tell them half of the things that I think, but they wouldn't understand. They tell me to be open with my feelings and when I do try to they just tease me. Well now I'm some what of an "actress" because I'm always acting like I'm happy when they are around but really I wanna get the hell away from them.
Birth sign: Aries
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