ive made plans to be alone on that day mama loves me, she supports me that way i claimed to be straight for so long and now i ask my self is this it?? this is what i waited for, this is my destiny but i still feel boredom and i can't shake it i feel the blue haze deepening around me and i think pop wrote me a letter and said that girls will be messing with my mind i didn't have the heart to say its not the girls messing with my head super! am i a coward? did i do something wrong?? and i was good, i never sang that song i wept in my mind, cried behind my smile as my name went into the x-file that holds and yet covers the hole in my soul im ready to come out..or wait, am i?? openly gay, yet not that anyone would know so i ask myself just one question i don't know the answer to am i ready???? and if so, for what???
Reason for writing:
im beginning to question my courage
Birth sign: Aries
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