Why am I sad?

by Nicholas ingram - Aries

Why am I sad?


I hope I didn’t make a,
promise I couldn’t keep,
should have thought before I speak,
I haven’t slept in like a long time,
and look at me,
I am getting tears all over this paper,
dam,
look at me crying,
I don’t feel good,
I MISS YOU,
how do I know I’ll ever,
see you,
that’s why I’m crying,
and scared,
my dreams seem impossible,
I wish you,
were here,
I wish u were near,
I wish I could be there,
I feel sick,
what if I don’t live up to my promise?,
I wont be happy,
I am really tired,
I can’t sleep,
every thing seems bad,
I cant even make u happy,
I cant be there,
I can’t be your “one”,
DO YOU KNOW WHAT THATS DONE??,
this is sad,
so so sad,
But I’m Glad,
your still happy with,
me,
I don’t know how,
yep, that’s my fear,
I can’t  even stop crying,
and denying,
 that, your my obsession,
there’s tears, every where,
sad, depressed ones,
that make you ,
wanna get a gun,
and run,
but I can’t,
this is the f******* meaning of lonely,
you don’t owe me,
please show me,
  no one understands me,
If I even,
fall asleep,
I’ll meet you in my dreams,
but when I wake up,
nothing can make up,
for the pain I feel,
this emptiness,
sadness,
and love is real,
your missing from my life,
I can’t deal with that,
I just don’t know how to act,
my head is aching,
from this pain,
My heart is shattered,
from all these lonely thoughts,
and just nothing,
cause that’s how I feel,
hopeless,
helpless,
I feel I am nothing,
a liar,
set this room on fire,
maybe,
that’s what you said,
“ I don’t care if your poor”,
“And had to work at the f****** store”,
“I still love you”,
and that made me happy,
but were are you now?,
its not your fault,
this is to sad to finish,
cause tomorrow,
I gotta face the world,
and knowing that your not,
there.

Reason for writing:

    My girl Friend Moved far a way (700 miles) i havent seen her in 9 months
and 3 weeks. I really miss her. I promised her i would come and see her in the summer.
I was sad because what if i can't come and see her. What if i fail. I would be letting her down and breaking a promise.
Very sad.    

Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2001-01-06 16:06:57
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:43:19
Poem ID: 59427

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