i know it's not easy

by La Cuba - Aquarius

i know it's not easy
but i try all the same
i try to get better
without going insane

it's been 192 hours
four days to everyone else
but to me each minute i hang on
each second i stay clean
is one more battle won

and some say it gets easier
but
i know it's not easy
i know it to be true
because sometimes i feel i can't hold on
and then i look to you

you told me if i did it again
you'd leave
and you're more important than that to me
can't you see i'm trying
DAMMIT
can't you see how hard it is
i know it wouldn't be easy
i know this
but i love you
so it makes living all the same

Reason for writing:

    getting clean sucks, but i love someone so much i'm willing to do it, i'm only 17, but i have time, i know it's not easy,
but i can do it
i WILL do it    

Birth sign: Aquarius
Date created: 2001-01-11 19:48:34
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:43:21
Poem ID: 59555

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