I WANT WHAT I WON'T GET

by Desiree - Virgo

A while back, I told you
that I wanted nothing,
but I desperately lied...
I want you more than anything,
Perhaps you'll never know that
only because I'm too ashamed to tell,
I love you so much that I throw
pennies in a wishing well, 
hoping that someday you'll come back,
when the time is right
and you have changed,
still here I fight.
Still to this day I believe 
I didn't do anything wrong,
You cheated and I couldn't be
where I felt I didn't belong,
That alone hurt me so tremendously
that words couldn't describe the pain,
But I sadly assume that with my loss
you have her to gain,
And I can't handle that!
Her by your side instead of me,
OH MY GOD, IT HURTS ME SO, 
as I sit here in fucking agony!
I wish you'd "walk
a mile in my shoes,"
to see what this single mother goes through
trying not to lose,
To do it all alone
without the help from you,
It's hard, it really is,
but you care only about your-self
and that you know is true,
You and I have a beautiful son
that you never come to see,
God only knows, even though
I sit and ponder "why" silently....

(In my head I hear this play
Cause I too, want things my way.........)

"Come back please, not for my benefit,
but for the child we made,
what can I possible do?
How can I persuade?"







Reason for writing:

    The influence is my unpredictable sadness!    

Birth sign: Virgo
Date created: 2001-01-12 00:47:17
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:43:21
Poem ID: 59564

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