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by FireFly - Libra

I wasn’t prepared to take it on-
I wasn’t cut throat enough-
To strike with the blade, faster-

You held so much on my shoulders-
If I didn’t deliver-
I wasn’t going to survive through-
The fall to the gaping anger below-

If love was blood-
I bled it all over-
So much of it, I drowned myself-
And choked on it-

Then that feeling kicked in, when I was laying low-
Holding secrets in a trailer behind my smile-
I wasn’t happy-
I wasn’t standing here buying coffee-
I wasn’t in the bookstore-
I wasn’t talking to my roommate-
I just passed the butter-
And kept my eyes on my plate-

Then I knew it-

I know-
If it was heard-
Or felt-
Spoken-
Seen or even gestured to-
Alluded too-
I know-
It hangs in silence-
Maybe somewhere above me-
Maybe somewhere near me-
I know-
I hear it, its sometimes painful-
Beautiful or indescribable-
But now I see it-
And I know it-
Even if I don’t want it-
It knows, that I know it-
And I’ll never be released-
Until I write it-

It’s in the eyes of the old woman-
The man crossing the street-
The singer singing religious hymns at the train station-
The old fishermen-
The police officer chasing down...that...criminal-

How the pictures move on the canvas-
Lightning erratically casting violent shadows-
Flowers growing wildly from the paper-
Every brush stroke says something-
Has a meaning-
Has a meaning-
I have meaning-

I was still and quiet-

I could see the colors now-
With out you-

You could live outside life-
But its colors will always-
Remind you-
Your the instrument, and the muse-
Birth sign: Libra
Date created: 2001-01-16 16:02:39
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:43:23
Poem ID: 59632

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