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by Rizzo - Cancer

There used to be a better me,
She was strong and tough,
And knew it never works out.
I went through life without a doubt,
Not a care in the world.

Then you came along,
Opened doors I never knew I had,
I felt it could all go well.
Now all I feel I do 
is bleed for you.

Now she is a ghost- and I am her bones,
      I know it will never work out,
So all I do is haunt myself.
I took away a part of you-
But you weren’t strong enough for me,
I shatter because of what you’ve taken in return.
Still my heart continues beating,
(Although it’s not even there),
 Still I continue breathing,
(Without my consent),
What will I do? How can it end?
I begin to fear the world,
I scare myself into a shell of lies,
The better me has turned against.

I am all I never wanted,
Trudge through life sludged with fear-
My shadow of doubt.
And I am scared because I know it all works out,
Just how you never want it to,
What will I do? What can I say?
When it all blows away…

I used to be a better me,
But I’ve gone astray-
You left me open wide,
And I fear all that I am,
You changed my better me,
Into what I never wanted to be,
All I am is skin and bone- there’s nothing in between.

Reason for writing:

    music..in particular trent reznor's ...and a late night    

Birth sign: Cancer
Date created: 2001-01-21 16:06:15
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:43:24
Poem ID: 59729

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