I asked you both to hang with me Go bowling, just hang free The night went good up until we got to your home Then there in your room, I began to feel all alone I reached into my pocket, felt something there You both looked over, began to stare Empty tears began to fill my eyes I came right out, and started saying "I want to die" You asked me what it was, what was in my hand I held up a card to the police station, I could no longer stand I fell to the floor, sobbing my tears You huddled over to me, to calm my fears I left right then, wanted to get away from this life The night lagged on, so began my strife The roads twisted to places unknown Thoughts swirled around my head, I didn't want to go home But I did and I found you there Standing there beside the stairs You knew something was wrong Knew all along I was headed down a one way street Heading towards my own defeat I shook violently, couldn't make myself stop You told me to get help, to get to the cops I screamed for mercy, to end my hell I was at my end, that, you could tell I started writing my goodbyes I had wanted to die You sang to me then Told me to calm down and get to bed Told me things would be better tomorrow That something would eventually end my sorrow You calmed me down thankfully Promised me you wouldn't leave me Until I was better So I laid my head upon the pillow that was soft as a feather Cried myself to sleep In the morning, I could no longer weep Things were finally better.
Reason for writing:
Friday night, I went out with my best friend and her boyfriend out bowling. When we got to her house, I found a card in my back pocket that I got from the police station tuesday night after I reported that I had been raped. After leaving her house, I was a mess. I wrote goodbye letters to everyone, took a bottle of pills from the kitchen just so my pain would finally end. But my ex boyfriend was there and he helped me through the pain. That has become the worst night of my life.
Birth sign: Scorpio
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