50 pounds of pain

by orange_4_m - Sagittarius

i should have known better.
being the naive person ive always been,
i let my emotions settle
into the corner of my mind
to never see broad daylight.
and now they think im not sensitive,
that i can take 50 pounds of pain
and carry it around with a smile.
they think that i cant cry because
i havent in front of them.
but god, if they knew the real me 
( and i wish they could )
they would see these alligator tears
running down my heart
emptying my soul
and blacking out any chance of feeling
any REAL happiness.
now these fake people want to
push their problems on me
like i am glue and i can fix it for them.
but i cant
( and i wish i could )
because ive got too many
broken feelings inside my own body
that are slowly cutting me
into tiny flakes of nothingness.
i should have known better
when 15 years of friendship
wound up in a guys name
and now all i feel like doing is crying.
crying my life away like
a little girl whos lost her mom.
but not in front of them.
ive still got 50 pounds of pain to lose,
before they can see the real me
cry.

Birth sign: Sagittarius
Date created: 2001-01-24 17:10:46
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:43:25
Poem ID: 59793

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