I feel guilty now

by Desiree - Virgo

There was a knock on my door,
not one of those little taps
but a powerful strong pound,
the kind where you can sense
that there is trouble on the other side,
the knock that you know no one you know has,
where you're almost too afraid to answer,
you'd rather shut all the lights off
and hide under the table 
kind of knocks,

I answered the door cautiously 
to see two older gentlemen 
standing in suits and ties,
one was tall and slender
with a thick mustache
draping down almost into 
the opening of the mouth,
and the other short and stocky
with the hair neatly trimmed above the ears
and maybe 30 strands of long hair 
combed to the side up over his bald spot 
on the top of his head,
I must add they looked very suspicious,

"What do you want," I said sternly
"We're looking for Desiree!"
just a minute 
then I slammed the door 
in their faces,

I looked to my family 
that was gathered around,
and asked whether I should continue
or make an excuse for me
not being here,
their presence scared me,
sent chills down my spine,
goose bumps galore 
so many that could make me lie,
"Just answer the door," mom said.

So I opened it back up
And welcomed them in,
They proceeded to tell me
That they were undercover cops
For the Sheriffs Department 
Here in Owego NY, 

My eyes got so huge
my heartbeat raced so fast
I began to panic 
deciding if I should run from them 
like I did twice before,
fear was in my veins.

"Oh my god, what did I do?"

Relief came so quickly 
when I was told they were 
looking for Justin!
those po po's ask so many questions
some I could not answer
some I didn't want to answer,
I paused for a while
before I said a thing,
took time out just to think…

I don't like cops all that much
and I never rat
but this was different though,
this was my son's father,
the one who betrayed me,
and to think that he once
drove his illegal car,
the one with no plates
registration or insurance,
got into a high speed chase 
with an enemy,
and practically got rammed off
the side of the road,
then drove back home 
and because of his drunken stupor,
called the pigs…
the cops arrived 
and because he wasn't thinking 
about his illegal mess
and because we both 
had the same make and model cars
except for different colors,
and he didn't want to get arrested
for the 9th trillion time,
I took the initiative 
to make up a completely false statement
That was documented.
Officer I was driving MY car
(the one that's legal)
and some guy tried 
ramming his car into mine…. 
And blah blah blah….
I could have rotted in a jail cell 
So many times for this asshole,
so many incidents occurred that could have
jeopardized my some what of a future.

Now I'm suppose to stand up for him?
uhh uhhhh! I don't think so!!!

"He lives over on Fredrick St., officer,
Works over at the factory on Broad St,
Lives with Jamie the stripper,

 What's his warrant out for?"

"Violating parole and probation.
Here's my business card
If you have any further information
Leading to his arrest please contact us."

"Ok, thank you have a wonderful day!"

Reason for writing:

    This happened to me this morning. My life never has a dull moment!    

Birth sign: Virgo
Date created: 2001-01-29 23:53:02
Last updated: 2021-04-14 17:18:12
Poem ID: 59905

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