How was I suppose to know that something wasnt right You never told me, until that night I came home late from work and I was a bit tired Sat down on the bed and you announced that you had gotten fired Classes were rough this year stress was wearing you in and your boyfriend found a new love and the flame disappeared I didnt notice you fast addiction to coke or those little things that you never spoke straight a student an all around nice girl mom's princess and daddy's little girl teacher's pet, in the church choir what went wrong Nat what happen I never knew what to say so I never said anything The next day I told you that everything was going to be okay I’d be here for you through thick and thin Cause you were very best friend Together we could get through anything I never saw that you were hurting I never saw your pain You tried to tell me again and again But I never listened, I was to busy in my own life I didnt see the tears that fell Or the silence Lonliness that you hid so well That night you sat in the room all alone With a bottle of pills that were not your own The pain that you must have went through I was at a party having such fun You never crossed my mind until it was too late I remember the last words you had spoke “He can harm me over and over again” But I”ll never give him the satisfaction of a heart thats been broke You said that dreams where meant to be followed and tears are meant to be a secret I came home late that night Found you in the bathroom and fainted at the sight You lay on the floor in a pile of blood an empty bottle in your hand and a kitchen knife by your head My heart was broken and my soul destroyed They buried you the next day I couldnt stop from crying why wasnt I there for you anyway You tried to let me know But I couldnt see You no longer wanted to live and felt it was your time to go If I could have been there just to talk You may still be here today My busy social life kept me away They say its not my fault I could have not known But deep down inside I felt something cold All the guilt within I continue to hold Now my heart is broke and unable to heal You took your life and that’s something unreal I always thought we were so close You could have told me anything Natalie please forgive me for leaving you alone You make your new home In that cold dark grave I , too live in a grave of my own The one that is buried deep in my soul The night my best friend died Natalie will you ever forgive me will I ever beable to forgive myself Your memory will always remain in my heart Your suicide took a big part out of both our lives
Reason for writing:
Last year my best friend of ten years killed herself in our college dorm, the night I went to a party I came home and found her...If I had only been there.....I miss you alot Natalie you will always remain.. I wrote this poem last year the pain is slowly healing and Im trying to cope with it, I'll always miss her
Birth sign: Aries
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