and i fucking believed you!!

by kylee - Pisces

all i ever wanted was to be next to you
to bad you're dead now
everything that could have been
but your life has come to an end
everything could have been so beautiful
nothing could have touched our world
we could have medicated everything that penitrated our seperate lives
fuck it
a little late for that now
after you died
crucified
like your perfect savior
where was he when i made you bleed in the snow?
such a blend of purity
destruction of someone beautiful
why couldn't you have been that part of me??
i fucking needed you
you knew it
you knew why i was so fucked up
despencing your false empathy
you're still beautiful even as you decay
just needed you to take everything away
but no!!
vanished your comfort
just as quickly as you appeared
pretend to care as if you were there
but i forgot
pretending to care is in your job description
i never saw that
remember telling them we were best friends?
the day you held my hands and told me it would be ok?
and i fucking believed you!!!
i could have broke down before you right there
..fall apart in your hands
you told me you loved me
and i fucking believed you!!!
i didn't realize you were telling me everything you were trained to say
i let you in!!
and you destroyed me
from inside to out
why do i still think of you?
yes, you meant that much to me
why couldn't you have seen everything we could have been?
now that i've taken your life
there's no reason for mine...

Reason for writing:

    i think its self-explanatory    

Birth sign: Pisces
Date created: 2001-02-03 03:06:09
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:43:29
Poem ID: 60011

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