A cheerleader in high school straight A student, an artist highly praised hanging out with all the kids that were cool parties every weekend getting trashed and fucked Only the incrowd where allowed Cheesy grins and fake smiles gossiping and making fun of everyone who wasnt like us ski trips and going to the beach during spring break shopping with my friends in between going to all the proms since I was a freshman an all around "lucky girl" It was true I was in my own little social world Dating the guys in the football team driving a sports car every girls dream Miss popularity that was me I was that girl that everyone wanted to be they only saw the outside of me they didnt see the pain and the fear of rejection the way i looked and acted became a severe obsession afraid to say no because I didnt want to be the so called loser going along with everything they said then one night I made a mistake got wasted at a party and slept with a guy and at the time I thought i was pregnant so I confided in what I thought were my best friends they pretended to be there for me then spreaded ugly rumors shoned me at school and talked about me behind my back I was a whore, a tramp, a bitch, skank, and a slut Such contradictors they too where doing the same thing just had’nt made the same mistake as me So with the advice of the so called school councelor I dropped out of cheerleading I was no longer invited to the cool parties I became depressed and secluded a regular hermit I didnt want to see anyone and noone was there for me In the cafeteria i sat alone until one day this girl that I had been so mean to sat down next to me I could hear the laughter from the incrowd the same crowd i was once so proud to belong to she never questioned me as a person she only wanted to be my friend I found a sweet caring and beautiful person in this so called Freak, outkast, and even wierdo She saw me as me while the others saw me as The princess in the glass bubble who became contaminated My heart was broke all these years I thought these people where my friends What did they have to offer besides put downs, stylish clothes and bad ass parties that I didnt even really like to go to. I went because it was expected of me As fate would have it the results turned out negative A mistake indeed there was no baby The only people that were nice to me where the ones that I made fun The friends that had once called me names and turned me away came back It was like nothing had happen at all everything remained the same All was forgotten and I again was part of the "popular" kids I belonged once again and that was that After all everyone wants to be in the incrowd I am proudly to say it was my turned to shone them Everyone talks about how great it is to be in the incrowd at one time I thought it was great too But now I remain with the normal people, the people who like you for who you are. I guess you could say that Im an "Outkast" and happy about it
Reason for writing:
This just goes to see that the incrowd isnt as good as it appears to be..I have been on both sides...its not always like that..All the time I was friends with these people i was unhappy, fake smiles and cheesy laughter..once you were in you were in but if you messed up forget it they no longer knew you
Birth sign: Aries
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