(Smart little comments
Inserted nonchalantly,
So imperturbably
You thought at least)
But I caught on immediately
To your saddened sarcasm
And I pretended I didn't,
Not because I couldn't
Reciprocate your actions,
Not because I couldn't
Bury you with my words,
But because that wasn't what
I was obligated to listen to,
It was like
I shoved fluffy, soothing cotton
In my sensitive ears,
To create a barrier
So your words
Could bounce off,
I didn't want to perceive
That quality of your vindictive voice,
But I still heard clearly
Every fucking remark you made!
Some how I obtained
An immeasurable amount
Of self-control,
Which was greatly needed
On my behalf
AND I DID SO GOOD,
Cause I wanted so badly
To violently attack,
But instead
I laughed it off
Like it didn't matter,
I repressed my feelings
Of hurt and anxiety
And held them back,
Biting my inner cheek
So fucking hard,
Hard enough to form blisters
That if I didn't leave that instant
They would have ruptured,
And the puss would have splattered
All over his skin,
Seeping into the layers of his heart,
Eating away any bit of pride that
That mother fucker had left,
I wanted to
Dig my nails
In your face
Till you bled,
I wanted to
Drag you to the end
Of the world
And push you
Over the E
D
G
E
Just to have
satisfaction
Because I
Deserve that!
Reason for writing:
Whew! Glad to get that out!
Birth sign: Virgo
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