Justin,
I've come to realization that revenge isn't the answer
or a prestigious action to consider in this pre-arranged
duel that we have so eagerly bestowed upon each other. This
destructive torment is actually quite unnecessary and I'll
admit that I did add fuel to the already raging fire. I
sympathetically apologize for the activities that I
performed in to insult, hinder or upset you, even though
there is no possible way for you to begin to comprehend the
reasoning or justification behind it. I thought maybe I'd
break like glass and cut you somewhere along the lines,
but I NOW KNOW that's unable to occur, for I know I'd hurt
my-self more in the long run. To treat you insolently with
contemptuous rudeness was a wrong method for me to practice,
regardless of the perversely intolerable actions that you've
partaken in to attempt to destroy my reputation or life in
that matter. Obviously we have two very different opinions
on this whole frazzled situation and no matter how hard the
other tries to show their perspective it isn't going to
make a difference, for neither one of us are open or
susceptible to compromise. You only know what's on the
outside, the external surface of my well-being, and what
visions I ALLOW you to perceive and viceversa. You don't
know all of what I'm about, you don't know how I feel, what
I think, and yet you assume strongly that I'm this great
bitch determined to intrude selfishly in your indulgent
world. That thought process is inaccurate to the "T", but
you'll believe what ever your one-dimensional mind creates,
and that's okay because I'm so incredibly overwhelmed with
great pleasure and delight that you, by far, would be
unable to grasp. But on the contrary, I knoweth not what
you are capable of perceiving. I am so happy that through
a mistake or something I regret so forcefully, I've
received the opportunity to experience new aspects on the
meaning of my life. That alone is the greatest gift that
sets my heart soaring high amongst the clouds. Once again
I apologize whether or not you're anxious to accept it.
From here on out I want to hear nothing unless it's happy
because I did my part to make things semi peaceful and I
could careless about the rest. I am very pleased to release
this heavy burden off my chest and I need not to be bitter
anymore for you can't possibly cause any harm to me, for
I won't allow it to project onto my individuality. Thanks
for listening and have your-self a splendid, wonderful day.
And don't forget to smell the aroma of wet dandelions
soaked and drenched from the nights long rainfall.
Sincerely,
Desiree
Reason for writing:
I wrote this a while back and just recently dug it out
of my wooden chest of memories. I thought about sending
it back then but changed my mind due to my stubbornness.
Needless to say, nothing has been resolved yet.
Birth sign: Virgo
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