he opens up his world

by Samantha Lowe - Scorpio

the bottle of pills lays beside my bed
on the chilled wooden floor
clothes scattered around it 
with an empty can of dr pepper lying right beside it
it's cold
standing here beside my window
looking out at the darkened world
my eyes are blank
unnoticing of him standing in the corner behind me
the tears have long dried out
the harsh words of hatred have long been said
i'm tired now
this night has been long
neverending
the clock has stopped for an eternal rest
for there's no more use ticking
everything has died with the loss of myself
and my once proud dreams
my fists are bloodied
my heart has grown cold
he walks over
makes himself seen
but i am blind
nothing changes;
he touches my forearm
his touch, warm and welcoming
i fall into his arms
as though i am falling into a brightly lit tunnel
his scent of Curve cologne evades my nostrils
i feel his breath by my ear
all sight floods back
all warmth awakens me
he quides me to the bed
lays me down and sits beside me
one of his hands caresses my cheek
the other, holds mine
he whispers 
"it will all be over soon
you have nothing to fear"
his eyes full of love
mine, full of hate
he opens up his world
honest
and trusting
yet my trust has long died out
with my loss of control; innocense
i fought for too long, i fought alone
he kisses me upon my forehead
tells me: "it'll be all right
i'm here
will never ever leave"
like all the rest have?
they all left a long time ago
how can i trust you won't do the same?
in an instant
one look into his baby blue eyes, i fall
into his arms, into his heart, into him
my world awakens
my heart grows warm
it all flows out from underneath
this night will be even longer now
he is teaching me how to trust, how to love, how to live 
all over again
and as i find comfort in his eyes
i think to myself:
"i'm finally free
the pain will finally leave me
i can finally let it all out
i can finally breathe."
Birth sign: Scorpio
Date created: 2001-02-18 23:22:59
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:43:38
Poem ID: 60467

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