Tired of Pain

by Desiree - Virgo

I'm really fuckin' tired…
tired of sitting 
back against the wall, 
legs bent and pushed against my chest,
the soles of my feet pressed flat
and firmly against the ground,
my arms resting on top of my kneecaps
and my forehead tilted downward 
upon my crossed forearms,
just rocking myself
back and forth
back and forth
to help ease my pain,
I asked for it to go away,
pleaded out loud 
pleeeeeease I beg you,
but I think pain enjoys watching
my tears trickle down my cheeks,
cause if he didn't
he would have vanished 
from my thoughts long ago!

Still here I try to continue
try to cope, try to deal, 
attempt to manage, just to get by,
but not a day goes by
where the memories don't come
and approach my conscience
killing every bit of happiness
I might have at that moment,
so once again
I find my-self crunched up
In a ball of sadness
tired of always having my back
against this wall!!!!
Birth sign: Virgo
Date created: 2001-02-27 00:37:01
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:43:40
Poem ID: 60604

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