Cheeseburgers on Saturday

by Chritty - Aries

Cheeseburgers on Saturday


I never really knew you all that well
but there was something about you
something so hard to tell
I loved you though I didnt know why
You were never around when I was growing up as a child
Other things kept you busy and occupied
I remeber a saturday when I saw you for the first time
You came over and said you were taking me out tonight
to dinner so we could talk and get to know each other
I was a bit frighten and nervous because I dont even know you mother
We went to this little restraunt and I ordered a cheeseburger
you did the same and I sat there in silence
just staring at you, we had the same blue eyes 
and the same smile
Same dark hair and tan skin
You asked how I been
I guess you were trying to get to know me all over again
not that you ever did know me in the first place
I said my life had been good, dad was great
Im going to be fine there was no need for you to worry
You took my hand and said that you were sorry
I shook it off and said it was cool Im past all that
I guess you heard the coldness of my voice because you looked away
tears rolled down your cheeks
and your voice began to quiver when you started to speak
you said that it was impossible for you to stay
and for me to please try to understand
You werent able to take care of yourself so there was no way you could take care of me
I felt frustrated you left me when I was ten
and now after so long you want to be in my life again
you never wrote and you barely called
sometimes late at night I would wonder if you even cared about me at all
You said you remarried and now I have a sister
You would really like it if I meet her
thats great but what do you want me to say
You were there for her but what about me
Guess I wast that important when you left and went away
I dont try to pretend that I'm happy to see you
There could never be a daughter and mother bond between me and you
I have always been here it was you who never came around
Im still hurting deep down
But I'll never let you see
How much pain you caused me
So I'll smile my best smile
like its going out of style
and I'll get through this day
you werent in my life very much but we will always have cheeseburgers on saturday.

Reason for writing:

    My mom    

Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2001-03-07 23:38:06
Last updated: 2021-04-14 17:18:10
Poem ID: 60825

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