Shame

by Leni - Gemini

Not again.
   Don't forget.
Remember
   Think back to the other night.
The shame that you felt?
   As I question this thought.
We know how good it feels
   But for the moment, I say back.
And the guilt of using him
   And not loving him, I add to that.
What does that say about yourself?
   What is this "Twenty Questions?"
Don't avoid the question, think about it.
   And what should I say?  That I hate myself?
Do you?
   Well maybe just a little.
Well I hate us too.
   But it's so intoxicating and I just seem to say..
It's o.k., just this one time, right?
   Exactly, you say it too.
Yes, I know I do.
   Do you think that she's stronger than both of us?
Could be.  She's been holding back nineteen years.
   You know, it really is fun, what we do.  Is it THAT bad?
Yes, yes it is.  Well, most of the time.
   Now do you hear yourself wavier?
I know.  I know the shame, but you know what we'll do again?
   Yes, we'll do what we have in the past...
And have this conversation all over again.
Birth sign: Gemini
Date created: 2001-03-12 20:14:23
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:43:46
Poem ID: 60940

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