delusional

by Antwan Fields - Aries

maybe ive lost my mind
and theyre coming to take me away
but i know you've felt this way
every fucking day
the world turning upside down and im falling into space
i can actually see myself falling toward the stars
the agony, yet the ecstasy
am i on ecstasy?
the delusional fabric weaving into my brain
the feeling of hopelessness magnefied by the pouring rain
i see myself with you being happy
then it disappears when a bum calls me slappy
yes, i am delusional, im going crazy in my sleep
yes, i do get to be the wonderful black sheep
am i going insane? am i losing my religion?
have i given up?  am i caught in a terrific collision?
moody by birth, by the throat i am grabbed
what im trying to do is become deflabbed
the last five days go flying through my mind
i make it a job to eat hard pork rinds
and im so close to the goal but so far away
cats are skidding, dogs come home to spay
pigs are flying, cows are rolling
for in my temporary insanity i hear the bell tolling
clang! heavy sounds flowing water burning souse
close my mind and my body into the house
then i woke up, and uncontrollably my body shook
then i screamed something about a goddamned book
i realize the close is the same as the open
but my delusion is heavy, im just copin'
my tears are superficial, they aren't really there 
technical diffulculties, with me please bear
as i scream without sound, i realize with a few hairs
im just delusional
and no one cares.
and im guilty of one crime, but its not of smashin'
my only other crime?
a crime of delusional passion.

Reason for writing:

    read the poem. im not crazy, but hey...    

Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2001-03-14 17:19:38
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:43:47
Poem ID: 60989

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