tonight i lay awake in this vast world that has become my own wallowing in between the lines of mere fascination not with how the stars shine in their luminous way or how the robin comes out each spring in hopes to make her nest but with all that has past within the days of my life and what is still yet to come it seems obvious i am growing up wanting to go off on my own now and going after that dream as hard and as fast as i possibly can everyone else seems so far away cast out in the ugly world struggling to fight, to live, to go on and become enriched in some sort of mediocre way i never did fit in with the rest of them then again i never wanted to people i once cared for that once held some sort of place in my heart now seems of no great illusion of course there's care left yet now it's expressed in another way other then through actions time i spend, is time spent with those that shall leave soon not with those who i will see within the next year nothing matters much anymore for why should it in just 5 short months, everything has changed no longer looking through distorted eyes hateful, revenge seeking mouths i have become alive with a sense of utter abandonment of all that i was and who i used to be hello to this new life of mine goodbye to lost teardrops pardon me for ever saying i died.Birth sign: Scorpio
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