Protective Custody

by Matthias L. - Capricorn

Alone in the night
Do I still know where I'm standing
Once again the fear struck deep
Of being betrayed by destiny

  Shaken with the pain of bitter lies I fear
  Shadows of what I created to go on
  Rebuild this failed existence
  Once again

I've lost myself
I've lost all of it
But I'm confident I'll find
Nothing once again

    Artificial light
    As cold and hollow
    As it suits me best
    Indeed there is no pain
    Depart with tears of joy
    There is no beginning

 Close my eyes to clouds of darkness I can't bear
 I'm falling out of reach, they seem to care
 You are so distant
 Once again

I've lost myself
I've lost it all
But I'm certain I will find
Some new lies once again

   I feel it's late, I'm losing you
   Familiarized myself with the thought
   Admit I've been not swift enough
   To figure out the rules
   I dared too much and now
   I can't pay 

     Help me cross the river
     Of an unspoken promise I once made
     There's a bridge called "say what you feel"
     But it looks too unstable too be trusted

       I could see you waiting on the other side
       For me, I thought, and didn't hear
       Your frozen picture in my head
       Say "good-bye" while I was paralyzed

  Built myself a castle out of sand
  For you, I told myself
  But waves of doubt swept all away
  The towers that were leaning
  And the walls around my heart
  To leave emptiness 
  Once again

 I've lost myself
 I've lost all of me
 Someday I'm sure I'll find
 Some new bricks once again
Birth sign: Capricorn
Date created: 2001-03-16 13:39:59
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:43:48
Poem ID: 61045

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