Building Up Defenses

by Samantha Lowe - Scorpio

the cool rain beats upon my window
filling my room with the drum of silence 
and complete abandonment
do i stand here now?
or am i someone else in this body of mine?
its all so unclear

downstairs, the voices of anger and defense strike
once again in this household
he must be out again
for she's putting up a fight
against one of her own children
dear god, take me away from here

i never thought i would be standing here
almost numb to the chaos inflicted upon my life
the tears have long since stained my lips
them, with their quivering innocence
i fought too strong, too long
it's all been useless

still his nights are spent at the bar
drowning himself in alcohol
she never understood why he did it
never understood why he was always out
away from her
but i did
in some distant way of understanding

the door to my own awakening suddenly bursts open
in she comes
ready to take it all out on me
as always
but there you are
right behind her
on your white horse
saving me from my own home.
Birth sign: Scorpio
Date created: 2001-03-17 15:37:01
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:43:49
Poem ID: 61071

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