Fighting to Let Go

by Samantha Lowe - Scorpio

that which i fear the most
is that which keeps me up each night
awakening to the dark solitude of a world full of suffering
i gave all i had to give it up
to fight to let go of it all
it all was useless

they say that time heals all wounds
yet mine will never close
i tremble at the thought of his hands upon my body once again
his scent inside my nostrils
as if to suffocate me
lose my breath
he hasn't left me
he will not let me go

in a dream, i saw him
face to face
mouth to mouth
"it's all my fault"
i said
"i should have seen it coming
i should have fought harder to get you off
it's all my fault that i am hurting now"

only then did i awake
beads of sweat upon my skin
no emotion bleeding from my eyes
just a fit of hatred kept down inside.
Birth sign: Scorpio
Date created: 2001-03-18 15:00:07
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:43:49
Poem ID: 61091

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