Almost Numb

by Samantha Lowe - Scorpio

silence
as we look into eachothers eyes
i have all but hatred stemming from my thoughts
you have hatred inside for yourself
and yourself only
why is it that i do not get mad at you?

why aren't you screaming
why aren't you hitting me right now
why?
i have no clue
i have no reason to

as we sit here in the trunk of my SUV
all i can see is a man who has taken my heart 
and bent it into two
all the while that we were together this night
her face floated through your mind
you could not go through with it

i used you
you said
i'm used to being used
i said
don't say that
you said
the truth is hard to speak but must be spoken
i said

yet still i lay here
listening to you go off about how you're such a prick
you're so fucked up
yet all i see in you
is someone confused, burnt out
all alone

and here i am, ok with it all
almost numb to the madness of my life.
Birth sign: Scorpio
Date created: 2001-03-18 15:13:55
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:43:49
Poem ID: 61092

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