i used to believe that i was above jealousy and i used to believe that i would be a doll to be with imagine the shock when i found we weren't compatible and the cavern that seperated us? imagine the width! im tied to you by time and place,a wonder of time that puts between us so much space,its a wonder that we even stayed in touch,with the cursing and crying and carrying on as such the wonderment and the blood that went to my head started plotting about seeing your friends dead i called it looking out for my own interests however the green eyed monster saw it another way he laughed hard at me and called me a schmuck till i was angry and pissed off and didn't give a fuck see what suspicion will do? the anger and the fear of losing you, im still ashamed of what the jealousy im my mind made me do im not as smart as i thought i was but my friend, i still love you when suspicion ruled my head and the fires and the laughter upon my fragile psyche it fed the flames and the powerful anger and the argument we had makes me feel tired, and very, very bad for i came an inch away from losing you to stupidity of my own doing how many times must i say im sorry for not being a worthwhile friend? and of our friendship? came very close to being the end Nicole.R, you are my closest friend and the best one i have how did i let him take my confidence and grab? and im sorry, all you've ever done is give and i hope you and i can find the strength to live because when i get rich, and i find you you and i will be close, through and through it got me angry and then it got me in trouble don't let suspicion burst your friendship bubble.
Reason for writing:
i had a reason to believe i was about to lose my best friend. so, stupidly, i took the advice of a certain pissant
and went over there and managed to look like a prize-winning
insecure asshole.
Birth sign: Aries
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