suspicion: jealousy of a friend

by Antwan Fields - Aries

i used to believe that i was above jealousy
and i used to believe that i would be a doll to be with
imagine the shock when i found we weren't compatible
and the cavern that seperated us? imagine the width!
im tied to you by time and place,a wonder of time that puts
between us so much space,its a wonder that we even stayed in touch,with the cursing and crying and carrying on as such
the wonderment and the blood that went to my head
started plotting about seeing your friends dead
i called it looking out for my own interests
however the green eyed monster saw it another way
he laughed hard at me and called me a schmuck
till i was angry and pissed off and didn't give a fuck
see what suspicion will do? the anger and the fear of losing you, im still ashamed of what the jealousy im my mind
made me do
im not as smart as i thought i was
but my friend, i still love you
when suspicion ruled my head 
and the fires and the laughter upon my fragile psyche it fed
the flames and the powerful anger and the argument we had
makes me feel tired, and very, very bad
for i came an inch away from losing you
to stupidity of my own doing
how many times must i say im sorry
for not being a worthwhile friend?
and of our friendship? came very close to being the end
Nicole.R, you are my closest friend and the best one i have
how did i let him take my confidence and grab?
and im sorry, all you've ever done is give
and i hope you and i can find the strength to live
because when i get rich, and i find you
you and i will be close, through and through
it got me angry and then it got me in trouble
don't let suspicion burst your friendship bubble.

Reason for writing:

    i had a reason to believe i was about to lose my best friend. so, stupidly, i took the advice of a certain pissant
and went over there and managed to look like a prize-winning
insecure asshole.    

Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2001-03-21 16:47:01
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:43:51
Poem ID: 61181

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