Melancholy

by Sadwall - Aquarius

“melancholy”

 i cannot hold this pain inside,
and these tears swell in my eyes.
 i don’t want to be alone anymore
what am i continuing to fight for?
 i don’t understand the concept of life.
i don’t understand the acceptance of strife.
 the same sadness lies inside my heart,
crossing the pain i will never part.
 i saturate my soul with bitter time,
submerge the guilt into my mind.
~~ “i know tomorrow will be the same,
playing life like a game,
 i know today was like the last.
seems like my life is fading fast.
 floating into the darkness, it takes me in.
scared to be alive, the light never shines in.
i am going to die alone...this sadness of life  is all i have ever known..”~~
 the truth tears me apart,
inside i’m burning, it breaks my heart.
 negligently living in dreams i hate.
leaving the feeling behind to wait.
 my only friends are those in flesh.
yet they are the same as the rest.
 never felt any different ‘cept when i am near you.
my heaviness is intoxicating to what i used to do.
be nothing and have nothing except the thought of holding you.
~~“i know tomorrow will be the same,
playing life like a game,
 i know today was like the last.
seems like my life is fading fast.
 floating into the darkness, it takes me in.
scared to be alive, the light never shines in.
i am going to die alone...this sadness of life  is all i have ever known..”~~
 this life is losing its will to live,
and i used to have much more to give.
but staying here means dreaming nothing.
when i see you i know there is something..
i live for....but in my sadness i lie...lie about life..lie asleep...i lie about everything...
“i know tomorrow will be the same,
playing life like a game,
 i know today was like the last.
seems like my life is fading fast.
 floating into the darkness, it takes me in.
scared to be alive, the light never shines in.
i am going to die alone...this sadness of life  is all i have ever known..”~~

Reason for writing:

    this is a song about hiding love and being unhappy    

Birth sign: Aquarius
Date created: 2001-03-29 16:59:05
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:43:55
Poem ID: 61407

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