just the way i feel (graphic)

by Antwan Fields - Aries

what do you think, i'm lying every other day
about not being straight, bi, but very gay?
i don't really care about what you say
because if its true, than i will pay
what is this, they ask me, is it really true
how you seemed to have outgrew
what do i have to do?
put a dick in my mouth and prove it to you?
and i seem to lose friends left and right
don't have to but sneak out in the dark night
you say i'm in the dark but im in the light
because i'm gay, do you wanna fight?
it's not a question of how tough
and not a question of how rough
don't think about calling my bluff
cause you know its true, true enough
so when i bring him home to meet mother
do i have to worry bout my brother?
its not like you are none other
the world i live in hope its another
a ride i seem to call on from my shell
don't need anyone to ring a bell
someone call reverend dell
and stop telling me im going to hell
it isn't like i walk up to you
and ask you bout what you do
it isn't like you need to call your crew
cause the walk is too long, so we flew
it isn't like i'm scared about flying
or crashing, burning and dying
all the times you say that im lying
have me staring at the wall, and i'm crying
every time i think about getting laid
i get worried bout a police raid
no shelter if youre looking for shade
fuck you and your wack-ass fade
and every time i go and look around
i notice who the hell just blew into town
i realize about that ground
and the power of that stare just knocks me down.
and the fucking track holds the damn train
watch my social life flow down the drain
all the times im against the grain
standing getting soaked in the shitty rain
all i ever wanted was to be away from judging eyes
measure you and all those lies
sweep away those damn fruit flies
watch as my weariness dies.

Reason for writing:

    this one is also musically based on creed's "what if?"
this is also one of the most honest poems i have ever
written.    

Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2001-03-29 18:12:19
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:43:55
Poem ID: 61415

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