Loss of My Innocence and Loss of My Dreams

by Veronica Stacey - Aquarius

I come here frequently and sit on the bleachers
just to wonder why I couldn't make it?
Wasn't I supposed to be the one out there?
Wasn't I supposed to be on the mound.
what happened to my drive and motivation?
She didn't go home everynight and worry about the stats and standings
I was the one going home and practicing after a game
I find it so unfair that the ones that  really want to suceed
are the ones that god didn't give the natural ability to
Why doesn't he see that the people who have to earn it
can't possibly out do the people who are half-hartedly in it
people tell me not to worry,
God gave me other talents that they don't have & I will find it evenutally
But although they are just trying to be nice I would like to tell them to shuff it
Teachers use to tell me that I should quit softball because I can't handle the school and softball
They just didn't understand
The only reson why I used to pass was because I knew that without passing grades I couldn't play
But everytime they said that, I took it in style 
They didn't have any right to tell me to quit living out my dream
I probably wouldn't have made it this far if I would have listened
I wish they could see me now
I actually wish I could be out there with them
I shouldn't have let myself get caught up in love
It was almost as stupid as listening to my teachers
Well I guess one day I can look forward to one of my kids living out there dreams because I lost mine
I lost my dreams when I lost my innocence

Reason for writing:

    I wrote this like i was in the future looking back and just thinking!!!!-#12    

Birth sign: Aquarius
Date created: 2001-04-01 18:00:36
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:43:57
Poem ID: 61531

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