pLaYiNg ThE fOoL

by Chritty - Aries


He wants me to be like you but I can’t
no matter how hard I try
thinking about him with you
just breaks my heart and I can’t help but to cry
my self to sleep at night
you two share a child and that’s something 
that I’m not ready for and won’t be for awhile
it’s obvious that he doesn’t love me
not like he loves you
He tells me that I am being silly
and that his heart belongs to me
I see the way he looks at you
I’m just trying hard to fool myself
I don’t wanna see the truth
you don’t love him but you won’t let him go
don’t you see, don’t you know
how much he means to me
lying on his chest at night
listening to him sleep I hear him call out your name
and when he touches me
he wishes that it was you
He denies it to me and says that Im overreacting
sure he cares for you because your the mother of his son
but a woman knows when her man loves someonelse
and I’m too blind to see
that it’s not me that he loves
its you
and Im just playing the fool

I try to hide the way I feel and pretend that things are great
but I know deep down he could never love me
and its to late
to give up on him now
I already allowed
him to come in and settle down in my heart
to claim it as his own
I try not to make it obvious and I pretend not to see
that when he makes love to me its you that he has on his mind
when he kisses me with his eyes closed oh so tight
its your face that he sees
when he's in my bed at night
he wants you there instead of me
I will eventually have to face the fact
that my man wants his ex back
a happy little family you could be
daddy. mommy and baby
excluding me
He will never let you go
but don't you see, don't you know
how much he means to me
he loves you and not me
I know this but 
I'm just playing the fool

Reason for writing:

    In love with a guy who was in love with his ex
    

Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2001-04-02 11:01:20
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:43:57
Poem ID: 61560

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