YOU TOOK THE INOCENCE OF TWO CHILDREN ONE OF THOSE WAS YOUR NIECE. SHE LOOKED UP TO YOU AND LOVED YOU. YOU ARE VERY TERRIABLE AND YOU DON'T DESERVE TO BE CALLED A MAN. YOU ARE A CHILDISH BOY. YOU HURT ME SO MUCH. I FEEL SELFISH FOR BEING HURT SO BAD WHEN THERE ARE TWO LITTLE GIRLS YOU HURT WHO NEED TO BE LOVED AND HELD AT NIGHT, WHO NEED TO HAVE THEIR TEARS WIPED AWAY WHEN THE WAKE UP IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT WITH A BAD DREAM OF YOU. THERE'S NOT A DAY THAT DOESN'T GO BY THAT I DON'T THINK OF YOU. I'VE THOUGT OF HOW IT WOULD FEEL TO SEE YOU HURT LIKE YOU'VE HURT US. I'VE THOUGHT OF HOW IT WOULD BE IF I NEVER MET YOU. I DON'T HAVE ANY REGRETS THOUGH BECAUSE I WOULD RATHER HAVE BEEN HURT IN LOVE THAN TO HAVE NEVER LOVED AT ALL. I HAVE LEARNED A LOT FROM WHAT YOU'VE PUT ME THOUGH. I HATE WHAT I AM RIGHT NOW. I DON'T LIKE TO BE THIS WAY I HAVE NO CONTROL I AM AT A WEAK POINT IN LIFE. EVERYTHING IS FALLING APART AND I CAN'T STOP ANY OF IT. I DON'T HAVE ANYONE TO HOLD CLOSE AT NIGHT. I HAVE NO ONE TO HOLD ME WHEN I CRY OUT IN MY SLEEP. I AM NOTHING. I'VE BEEN TOLD I AM A BEAUTIFUL GIRL WELL WHY CAN'T I SEE IT I THINK I AM FAT AND UGLY MY RED HAIR IS MY ONLY FEATURE I LIKE MY SELFESTEEM IS GONE YOU TOOK THAT. YOU MADE ME FEEL LIKE I WAS NOTHING NOW I BELIEVE IT
Reason for writing:
I DON'T WANT PEOPLE TO FEEL SORRY FOR ME WRITING IS MY ONLY WAY TO VENT BESIDES WORKING 60 HR WEEKS AND I CAN'T WORK LIKE THAT AND GO TO SCHOOL FULL TIME SO I WRITE UNTIL SUMMER
Birth sign: Taurus
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