Silly All those hollow Superficial pains The crush that never noticed me The C on a term paper that was half-asked The boyfriend that doesn't worship every grain of sand I've walked upon Supersiliously I thought these were pain But now they pale Shrivel and wither away To this tear in my heart By loss By guilt By taking this for granit Taking everything for granit This is pain! This is pain Feeling helpless Loosing what was so important to me Having it seep through these ignorant fingers Taking for granit The hold I had on it. This is pain! And it only hurts more when you say I know Because you can't even BEGIN to know What this pain is! You could never feel THIS pain It's all mine And now I wish I would trade this in For a thousand crushs that never knew who I was A C on everything I ever did From here on out And a boyfriend who ignored me every minute of my life Because all that so-called pain Would feel like pure bliss Compared to this hell I've put myself in.
Reason for writing:
It's just been one of those days where it feels like the rug has been pulled out from under me. I mean no disrespect to those who have or who are now having a crush that isn't returning the same feelings, or any of the other things I called "hollow pain", I'm just calling the "pain" I felt with all those things hollow compared to this real hurt now. I didn't loose a boyfriend or anything, it's much, much worse than that.
Birth sign: Gemini
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