I Don't Know Why

by Samantha Lowe - Scorpio

i dont know why i cry today
why, for some reason, no emotions can be held back
and suddenly, they're all staring at me
as though i were someone completely different
i think it's because i've made it this far 
without once letting go
well... thats a lie
i've let go plenty of times
yet always found myself still standing
although i could never really explain why
why i would hold onto something that never really had any meaning
or had meaning but didn't quite satisfy my desire
something like that
in two months i'll be walking down that aisle
looking up into the stands at my mom and dad
smiling down at me
proud and happy at seeing their daughter accomplish a goal
and finally old enough to set out on her own
meet the world with the same grin they've gotten used to seeing
over the years 
with the long light blonde hair and blue eyes that caught the eyes of her last boyfriends
i know that when i walk, i'll be crying hysterically
not for leaving
not for everyone that i would miss
not for the last 12 years that i've spent working my butt off
but for making it that far
for not letting go when i wanted to
and for finally realising, that i'm somebody and i can never be happier than what i am today.
Birth sign: Scorpio
Date created: 2001-04-06 15:39:06
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:44:00
Poem ID: 61686

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