so i'm lying here staring at my ceiling thinking about love thinking about how much i miss you and i start to wonder why i feel so bad why are there tears clouding my eyes its not because i miss you so much, although i wish it were its not because i fucked up, although i wish it were its because you hurt me. so i wonder how i let this happen and i remember how i fell in love with you quickly, very quickly and i remember that i love you with all my heart and soul. and i wonder why i do because this hurts so bad so i stare through the tears a little longer at the ceiling until i can't see the ceiling anymore all i see is a puddle of water. and i remember when you would say things that made me feel like a big puddle and i remember i opened my heart to you i gave you my heart, do you remember that? and i remember all the times you said you would never hurt me and i wonder what happened today. i wonder so i think some more and i wipe away the tears they do me no good. i remember a conversation we once had you told me that you never wanted to go to bed angry at each other so i guess you won't. i think about where you are right now and i can't help but think that you are out you are going to get high going to have fun leaving me home, crying, alone. so i again, wonder how i let this happen then it comes to me i love you. that's all the reason i need right? so why does it hurt so bad?
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Birth sign: Aries
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