so this is how a broken heart feels

by Antwan Fields - Aries

i know, it was just an internet romance
but it was very real
at least that's how it was to me
that is how i feel
i booted up feeling that at least you would understand
just how my life was hell
but you don't understand how
my heart just fell
it hurt me to read that you had found someone else
it ripped me apart
feels like you reached in and just scratched 
my heart
like i was injured i just stared at the screen
realizing my worst fears
i could barely see through the effort 
of holding back the tears
and seeing as you did the things 
you used to do with me and that i loved
but this sucks cause it hurts and
my tears are getting gloved
the way you hurt me, injured me and i had to smile
i didn't want to be ungracious and let you see me in pain
my feelings are numb
they've been sprayed with acid rain
i am damaged and yes i do still hurt
you can call me a loser all you want and it won't matter
i can feel the heart that i used to have
hitting the floor with a clatter
as i remember that i loved you and you hurt me like this
i try to be professional, but why should i be
but i knew this would happen, just not so fast
and not to me
the ice begins to form, i seem to be alone
i feel like im at the bottom of a pit
and i try to be myself but i know
my heart isn't in it.

Reason for writing:

    yeah, call me a loser, but my online yahoo chat boyfriend found someone else. so, im walking around in a daze and i'm numb.    

Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2001-04-11 15:02:33
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:44:03
Poem ID: 61863

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