life has been hell for me i've been threw everything form teen pregences to drugs to even losing my mother threw it all they've always said look at her like i can't hear what they say about me i can hear it all i know i'm not a mother i know i'm not prefect i know my mother left me i know my father loves me i know my older brother misses me i know my little brother needs me i know my older sister wants me to be like her i know this all and i know that i can't turn around now and take back the things i did i can't take back the day i told my mom i loved her. and meant it because i don't now i can't take back the dad i told my dad i would never care cause look at me now i care about it all i can't take back the day i told my brother i'd see him later no one knew i never would i can't take back the day i told my little brother to grow up that his act was getting old cause i only want to see him standing 4' nothing now i can't take back the day i told my sister i never wanted to be like her cause she was ugly and annoying because look at her now as prefect as anyone could be i have all these thought runnig threw my head all the time all day every day i know i shouldn't think about it so much but how can i not they are all a part of me and i can't help but think what if.... what if my mom still loved me if... my dad still knew i cared if. my brother never moved away if....... joe hadn't grown up so fast if..... heather wasn't so pretty would i still be me? the me i am today the me they all want to love? or would i be you?!
Reason for writing:
i just had a lot on my mind cuz it was 7 years ago today my mom left me my sister and little brother..... so it just got me thinking
Birth sign: Pisces
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