Toys in the attic

by Matthias L. - Capricorn

If I told you how to read my words
Would you be my company
For a walk to the river of my dreams
Where in the reflections I could show you
Anything I've ever seen
On a promenade through my mind

At last I can pretend to understand
That in this lesson that life 
Never gives up to teach me
The centre quite obviously revolves
Around the concepts
Of not letting go
Especially not when holding on to 
An illusion that raises a lifeform called "pain"

To be sure no one sees
What I still hold inside
Like in a little boy's game
I closed my eyes
And hoped no one would see

Without any faith
I've tried to go on
Seeking distractions in a random order
But when at first it was just me
Who always surrendered and returned
This time it was you
With a message of sound but not voice
And a picture
Which only the blind man I am
Would recognize as art

Can't you see what you're doing to me?
Every single word you don't speak
The seconds of silence
Those eyes that live on in me
Pry open the dark room
That without a sign on the door
Contains all my secrets
Contains all my fears 

To be sure no one sees
What I don't hold inside
Like in a little child's game
I closed my eyes
And hoped no one would see

And finally a name
That even when forgotten
Never really leaves
Deep within keeps digging
Taking away brick by brick
The fortress I've built 
In every spare minute
In a moment of life 
Devoid of all the things in it
I wonder how long it will take
Until it uncovers this secret
I've been desperately
Trying to hide

Back then it worked
But now things are different
And now safely the toys are 
Tucked away in the attic
With all the memories
Of a child's innocence

But now I'm sure
As I've talked with my own
And I was reassured
That rules sometimes change

To be sure no ones sees
What I don't hold inside
Like in a little child's game
I still close my eyes
Although I know that you see

Reason for writing:

    hehe... sorry to Pink Floyd for stealing one of their lines to title my poem :o (But maybe no one's gonna notice?) *runs away and ducks behind a large rock*    

Birth sign: Capricorn
Date created: 2001-04-22 17:25:02
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:44:10
Poem ID: 62263

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