in the pictures

by chritty - Aries

The time has come and gone
now Im sitting in the attic going 
through all the photo albums that I own
Sitting here holding your picture
that beautiful face staring back at me
you looked so happy in the pictures that I kept
there were so many of us together
we were so close almost inseperable
I knew everything about you and you knew all about me
but I failed to see the pain that you lived in reality
maybe I was in denial
but you hid your feelings so well
all the memories that I have of your smiling face
are in the pictures I kept
Here are the pictures from spring break
remember Cancun  we spent our days and nights out on the beach
I bought at least ten of those disposable cameras
and used each one
you laughed at me
and said that I was silly
no one needed to captivate every single memory
we would have plenty more
but I didnt care every moment was just as important
as the moment before
I have your laughter in the pictures that I took
your sweet sweet smile
wait what is this it can’t be
 you look sad in this picture that you took with me
you look like you are going to cry
there is something wrong you look so sad
is that when the pain started
how come I didn’t ask  you why
how come I never noticed this picture before
it never really crossed my mind
all the memories that I have of that smiling face
are in the pictures that I kept
it was a sad day and they came to me
for a picture of your smiling face
I searched for the best one
but you seem to look sad in all of them
hidden behind a happy face
your eyes seem to be calling out to me
it's as though you wanted me to see what wasn't there
how come I never noticed this before
but your feelings you hid so well
I guess it was to hard to tell
or maybe I was in denial
one last time to tell you goodbye
looking at your pictures
and staring into those blue eyes
they were all lies
these pictures that I had kept
the pictures that showed your smiling face

Reason for writing:

    my friend Natalie I was looking at some pictures of us growing up and of the summer she commited suicide I thought everything was okay    

Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2001-04-25 14:59:27
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:44:12
Poem ID: 62337

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