tears of anger

by Antwan Fields - Aries

have you finished hurting me yet?
have you convinced yourself that i can't hurt you??
has it come to the point where you think my words cannot hurt?
given another opportunity
to list my shortcomings, i do so happily, not knowing that i
i am deriding myself because others will do so so i help
i make light of myself but i feel too much ambivalance and too much unhappiness for the humor to be real
and i feel that i must withold the tears that threaten me, threaten the facade that i have erected, refusing to be penetrated, refusing the fact that i do cry sometimes because it seems i am doomed to be pathetic, doomed to be a loser, to not escape the trap ive been placed into, why the hell do i try for people that are not interested, for your hurtful words guerantee that i will cry again, but they will not be tears of disgust or tears of sadness
they will be tears of something i always feel toward you
tears of anger.

Reason for writing:

    this occured to me that this could be put into words. so i wrote this from the heart. hadn't planned it, just wrote the first sentences and the rest just came out.    

Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2001-04-26 16:02:32
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:44:12
Poem ID: 62372

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