i once threw a pepsi

by joel abel - Taurus

i once threw a pepsi
bottle through a trailer house
window...
and then a few months later
passed  myself off
in a room full of phonies
as someone sensitive
and full of culture.

it wasnt even a bad breakup,
i mean, shit, ive lost it over
break ups. 
stalked ex's
threatened thier new boyfriends
slashed a tire
or two,
but this time,
with this girl, 
i was just happy to get out.
to wash the taste of oklahoma
out of my mouth.

back in dallas they were all too
happy to hear about my adventures
in the bible belt
not knowing that i had grown up there
in one of those same trialers
we had such a good time
making fun of.

i mean shit, it was cool to like willie nelson,
but what if they discovered my
earnest tubb collection?

i once thew a pepsi bottle
through a trailer house window
and then crashed a car into a tree
and then rode a bus all the 
way back to dallas
to be with phony friends who
were mostly from small
towns like me, but could 
never admit it.

once i was drinking a pepsi
as i tried to pack my shit into
a car i was soon to wreck into
the side of a cotton wood tree,
when this girl,
whom i had allways thought of
as boring and safe
and unimaginative
opened the window of her trailer
just enough to yell out:
your a goddamn phony
and you rape art in the name
of hedonism!

the truth hurts.
but not as much as a pepsi
bottle speeding toward your
face at high volecity
in a perfect
tight spiral.

i missed her face by an inch,
and instantly i was glad i did.

the truth is a dangerous thing.
wars have been fought over
the merest scrap of truth.
revolutions waged.
nations have crumbled because of it.

and she has probably replaced
the window by now.
Birth sign: Taurus
Date created: 2001-04-27 00:59:58
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:44:13
Poem ID: 62388

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