To no avail

by Matthias L. - Capricorn

Is it all over or has it just begun?
Empty spaces between us
Tell me
Can we fill them once again?
Listen to my words
Still they're coming in disguise

You're so used to talking to my mask
You cannot see my true self anymore

To no avail
I can't see through the mirror that is you
And all my failed attempts
Stare back at me
In darkness
Broken glass is falling down

They said there was no class
So I asked to change my cards
I've reached beyond the curtain
But can't grasp

I'm so used to breathing through this mask
I made my true self suffocate

To no avail
I can't face the mirror that is you
Where all my living lies
Question me again
In darkness
Broken glass is falling down

All that is over comes back once again
All those directions 
That were not mine to follow
Was it the fear of living through 
Another broken dream?

What if I used this time to drop my mask?
I'm so afraid I'll lose my true self evermore

To no avail
I've seen myself in the mirror that is you
Death awaits and says "do come"
But I won't listen
I'm afraid

Should I really wait
And leave these dreams untouched?
I fear I'll lose my mind
I already miss so much
But do I really need it all?

I don't want to look behind 
The mirror in your eyes
Cause I am afraid I'll find 
There is no true self anymore

Reason for writing:

    I've already written this one some months ago, but couldn't find it anymore... I think it's about what we do to ourselves and others by building walls around our heart without really noticing it in time...    

Birth sign: Capricorn
Date created: 2001-04-27 04:41:46
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:44:13
Poem ID: 62391

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