Living In Denial

by Nicole - Aquarius

It's so hard to say
But I believe it to be true.
I no longer think of you all day
And no longer the night thru.
I believe for you I don't care
Don't care like I used to.
I know you'll never be completely there
Never there like I'm completely there for you.
I know that friends we'll forever remain
And for each other there's nothing we wouldn't do.
But that's it-- nothing different, always the same
Never will there be a me and you.

It's so hard to say
But I believe this is what I must do.
When you walk in with her, I'll stay
And be happy for you, too.
I don't care you look away from me
And smile at her just like I do for you.
I don't care that we will never be
And never tell me always forever, always true.
I'll try not to look away too obvious, too clearly
But I wish you happiness, of course I do.
I'll try to cover my hurting so you don't hear me
But I'll always believe you're special thru and thru.

It's so hard to say
But I believe I'm moving on without you.
I know I love you in every way
But for you I know this isn't true.
It's so difficult to look away but smile back
But this I know I could do.
I know you'll never love me like that
But know you've touched me like so few.
I know she makes you happy, and I smile
But why wasn't it me who does that to you?
Don't tell me, I don't care (am I in denial?)
But no matter what, I wish every experience new.
Birth sign: Aquarius
Date created: 2001-04-28 00:21:42
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:44:13
Poem ID: 62407

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