I'm sorry for the times I've let you all down No, don't tell me that I haven't I admit, that I have I used to be the quiet, shy girl that never started any trouble There were times when I should have Should have stuck up for myself Should have told you what was going on Instead I hid the bruises Covered up the scars upon my arms Sucked it up and smiled Laughed with the best of them I never showed any faltering For my tears were never displayed My anger- never shown I was the clown of the group The shoulder for everyone else to cry on The steady arm for everyone to cling to You guys never expected for me to fall You never saw any warning Anything of what was actually going on That day that I walked into school This past December After 9 years of suffering You finally got the clue Finally saw the salty tears fall from my cheeks And finally heard the hell that I have bled throughout the years And heard the threat to end my own life I'm sorry for talking like that Sorry for putting you through 5 months of babysitting Of staying up late at night, calling every hour Just to make sure I was still hanging on Sorry for saying goodbye all those times When I wanted to give up Sorry for having you force me to go get help And for watching me go through rages Putting holes in the walls Walking away from everyone including myself Because I got upset that no one would leave me alone And I thank you For being there when I doubted that anyone would be there at all For putting up with my anger, depression, my altered state of mind Thank you for taking the bottle from my hands The alcohol from my lips The hatred and sadness from my life Thank you for giving me the oppurtunity to wake up every morning and smile for realising what I have For going to school and having people scream my name from down the hall For driving home from school 6 of my very good friends Even though it's illegal to fit that many people into my truck Thank you for giving me the second chance And for allowing me the oppurtunity to go to the prom on May 12th with my perfect date Riding that trolley with 22 of my closest friends to the most special night of my life To walk down that aisle on June 19th in my white gown Holding that diploma with a great big smile upon my face And a tear that would capture all that I have felt these past 18 years... I never thought I would make it Never thought I'd last through the year Never thought I'd forget his touch And the hurt that he gave me.
Reason for writing:
not one of my best but i couldn't think of another way to write it
Birth sign: Scorpio
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