To Live Or Not To Live

by Kimberly - Taurus

I often ask myself if life is worth living
If I were dead though
I wouldn't feel so god damn fucking violated
And I wouldn't feel lonely or hurt
I could be an angel
Watching over the special people in my life
I could fly and fly and fly
But if I die
I'll never feel my gramma's hugs or kisses
I'll never be held by another man
I'll never be able to tell someone special that I love them
I'll never be able to dance or sing
I'll never be able to love anyone again
I'll never be happy
I'm just so sad and I feel lonely
I'm scared shitless
And I need fucking help
I feel like I'm out of this world
Like I don't belong
I need someone in my life to love me
Besides my family
I need someone to hold me 
And to kiss me tenderly
And to hold my hand
And to wipe my tears away
I need someone

Reason for writing:

    I don't know what to do.  I often think about taking a razor
apart and just ending it.  I'm so scared.    

Birth sign: Taurus
Date created: 2001-05-02 22:10:56
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:44:15
Poem ID: 62531

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